N owa

” I shambled after as I’ve been doing all my life after people who interest me, because the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes ‘Awww!’ ”      

 Jack Kerouac

I just made decision of my life. 

I’m going to study in USA no matter what and where I just want to do it and I’m sure for 100% Now I just need to do this famous TOEFL - Test and find many scholarships. Do somebody have some information, new and helps for me what I should do at first? 

I’m not calling myself ”fashion gandhi” or this one who knows everything what is ”IN” right now. Yes I love fashion and it will always stay one of my hobbies. But what happend with all this creativity of all this yound girls?

If you going through shopping streets and malls almost everyone looks the same! The most famous stil now is long dark hair, eyeliner, clothes from H&M and highheels with lacing. 

What is more strange now I feel like one of them. Therefore I want to start a pission to change my look. I always wanted to do it :) Not that i’m not happy with my look but I want something new and fresh :D 

It was so nice in usa where everybody saw you as the new girl from europe with this new style (style which is everywhere here). I loved it and I want to have this feeling again. I want just buy some old shirt and cut them. I want to try tie dye and have fun with it. When I will be have some money again I want to dye my hair and don’t care what everybody is thinking about it. I just want to have fun ! :D

Twelve months ago I was ready to leave and start something really new. I went to USA for one year and it was great. I love everything in this counrty. I can even say it was the best time of my life! I met beautiful people and learned about their culture and traditions. I also find the love of my life and this everything with 18 :) 

Now I’m here again going to school and thinking about my future. The friends changed and nothing is it how it was before but i’m ok with it. I also changed. Now I need to figured out what I want to do next and this became to be really hard. 

I don’t know what I want to study and where. Should I study home or move out with my life and go somewhere where I never was before? Luckly I still have time to think about it :D 

I love you Victor <3